Fall
Falling out
Of the heavens, a broken angel joining us humans, the forever unfaithful
This illusion of perfection shattered by betrayal.
Falling out
Of the hands, unspoken diamonds, jewels sparkling in the untested silence
This chimerical ship of a beautiful tyrant.
Falling out
Of the heights, a forgotten girl just a stranger in this God damned rotten world
A jumper who leaves her parachute furled.
She was an angel in my life, a figure from fables, playful, able to see all angles, gauche yet graceful
Our relationship unlabeled
A sisterhood with insecurities promised to be overcome.
We couldn’t.
And
She fell.
She seemed infallible.
Yet she faltered.
Accidentally, but unregretfully
Her illusion of perfection shattered.
She unwittingly abandoned me again and again
This angel of amity now a demon of pain.
I know now there are no such things
As angels.
And if there are such creatures, they’re no strangers to the devil.
They’re jokes, circus animals
Scorned, forced to join the forever unfaithful in this cold world ever fatal.
And she.
The beautiful tyrant.
A liar and a charmer.
I see past her armor and deep down there is nothing left in her
But the shriveled skeleton of a used to be dreamer.
She rules relationships like a slave owner, abusing her lovers who see only the good in her
She is a sweet facade coated in sugar.
So
I held those diamonds in my mouth
Though they clawed my throat
Though they cut my tongue.
Those sharp words that could bring down the giant.
When I finally spit them and tested the silence
They were covered in blood and unconstructively quiet.
And so she remains the fantastical queen
Of chimerical ships, reigning supreme
A hypocrite with no life but fears and no lust but tears,
A used to be dreamer, a charmer, a liar
A sweet facade coated in sugar.
They left me.
Alone on the ledge
No one to hold.
No one to help.
They left me.
My two best friends
The broken angel
The beautiful tyrant.
On a misunderstanding turned suicidal stranding.
They left me.
A forgotten girl in a sea of people.
A God forsaking stranger in God forsaken danger
Alone on the ledge
In the sky.
I fell out.
I really like this poem, you tell an intriguing story. I like you use of enjambment. I especially like the line: "But the shriveled skeleton of a used to be dreamer."
ReplyDelete"A hypocrite with no life but fears and no lust but tears,""On a misunderstanding turned suicidal stranding," and "A God forsaking stranger in God forsaken danger" are all so SO beautiful and I love the pattern of rhyme you used in each one. Your story is really interesting and thought-provoking.
ReplyDeleteI love how your poem develops
ReplyDeleteFavorite line: "Of the hands, unspoken diamonds, jewels sparkling in the untested silence"
You have clever imagery in your writing.
I also like how well the image you found matches with your poem!
I love the repetition of key lines used in your poem. I second miranda's favorite lines, and I think the whole poem was really beautiful. I also really liked that there was a literal meaning of the poem but there was also a deeper meaning that you really begin to understand as you read more and more.
ReplyDeleteI love the repetition of key lines used in your poem. I second miranda's favorite lines, and I think the whole poem was really beautiful. I also really liked that there was a literal meaning of the poem but there was also a deeper meaning that you really begin to understand as you read more and more.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful as always! Your use of repetition was very effective in keeping the flow of the poem. The story you told was very interesting yet fun to read. My favorite line is, "But the shriveled skeleton of a used to be dreamer."
ReplyDeleteThe imagery you had in your poem is super strong. Those these were all metaphors regarding your relationship, I was able to picture them perfectly. Thus, it was easy for me to connect them to the literal meaning of your poem. I also love how the narrative unfolds and how it ends with a sense of dread/uneasiness. My favorite line of yours was the description of "a sweet facade covered by sugar." The metaphor there was easy to understand, yet powerful. Great job!
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