Fall
Falling out
Of the heavens, a broken angel joining us humans, the forever unfaithful
This illusion of perfection shattered by betrayal.
Falling out
Of the hands, unspoken diamonds, jewels sparkling in the untested silence
This chimerical ship of a beautiful tyrant.
Falling out
Of the heights, a forgotten girl just a stranger in this God damned rotten world
A jumper who leaves her parachute furled.
She was an angel in my life, a figure from fables, playful, able to see all angles, gauche yet graceful
Our relationship unlabeled
A sisterhood with insecurities promised to be overcome.
We couldn’t.
And
She fell.
She seemed infallible.
Yet she faltered.
Accidentally, but unregretfully
Her illusion of perfection shattered.
She unwittingly abandoned me again and again
This angel of amity now a demon of pain.
I know now there are no such things
As angels.
And if there are such creatures, they’re no strangers to the devil.
They’re jokes, circus animals
Scorned, forced to join the forever unfaithful in this cold world ever fatal.
And she.
The beautiful tyrant.
A liar and a charmer.
I see past her armor and deep down there is nothing left in her
But the shriveled skeleton of a used to be dreamer.
She rules relationships like a slave owner, abusing her lovers who see only the good in her
She is a sweet facade coated in sugar.
So
I held those diamonds in my mouth
Though they clawed my throat
Though they cut my tongue.
Those sharp words that could bring down the giant.
When I finally spit them and tested the silence
They were covered in blood and unconstructively quiet.
And so she remains the fantastical queen
Of chimerical ships, reigning supreme
A hypocrite with no life but fears and no lust but tears,
A used to be dreamer, a charmer, a liar
A sweet facade coated in sugar.
They left me.
Alone on the ledge
No one to hold.
No one to help.
They left me.
My two best friends
The broken angel
The beautiful tyrant.
On a misunderstanding turned suicidal stranding.
They left me.
A forgotten girl in a sea of people.
A God forsaking stranger in God forsaken danger
Alone on the ledge
In the sky.
I fell out.



