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Thursday, May 26, 2016

Fix me

“Fix me”

Problems
We all have them
We all deal with them
Despite what we call them

Issues
Obstacles
Our problems take on different names
Different faces
Different or the same

Depression
Anxiety
Friends
Sleep deprivation
Social pressure
Obligations
Stress
Drama
ADHD
Family

Day by day
Are you ok?
Rhetorical
Fixed
Hypothetical

Problems
Always generalized
Solutions
Always easy

Affected
Always not willing
Lazy
Do what you must
Concern
Unmotivate
Control

How do you fix a problem?

That doesn't want to be solved

Mediocre Man

Faster than an amateur jogger
More powerful than a 12-year old
Able to leap trash cans in a single bound

Look! On the street!
It’s a guy. It’s a guy staring at his phone. It’s MEDIOCRE MAN!


“What’s it like to be Mediocre Man?”

It’s like being alive.
An ordinary experience
beyond your mildest dreams.

Of course, my powers are great:

Setting high expectations!
“I am above average! I am special and unique!”

Taking the path of least resistance!
“I watch YouTube and eat cereal for hours because it’s easy!”

Subverting circadian rhythms!
“They were stopping me from getting heart disease!”

Living in denial!
“I stay up late to pretend to myself that I am working!”

I am Mediocre Man!
And I always BE MYSELF™!
I saddle the middle of the bell curve
Like a grown man on a tricycle.

I am mediocre

And this is where I stand.

An Apology

An Apology

Children starving,
Prices go up.
Hopeless fathers sell kidneys to the black market
Just to buy
some bread
So their kids will grow up

Not that it really helps anyways
Children assume their fathers’ positions
The cycle continues.

They throw themselves in front of moving cars
To reap the benefits their
faulty government promises
To cripples.
But the medical bills are still
too great
Not enough money to pay for them
Children are starving
Prices go up.
Fathers die
Mothers cry
Children are starving
Prices go up.

The wealthy sit idly by
Eating ice cream flaked with gold from Italian glasses
Getting
fatter
by
the second
As if the fat the poor are losing
Is being transferred to them.

Children are starving
Prices go up.
The wealthy don’t care
The poor are dying
Their sickly voices too easily
Drowned out
By the deafening cries of
all the unfortunate souls
Whose parents won’t let them have their way
Who aren’t allowed to go out with their friends
Who can’t buy a fourth car.

Oh, woe is you,
Silk scarves and
Expensive caviar
I’m sorry you are so deprived.
Fathers die
Mothers cry
Children are starving
Prices.
Go.
Up.

Junkie


Junkie

“I didn’t want to curb your high, but--”
You didn’t want to think about the wild highway after that.
It could be grave
But gamble on retrospect,
That last gamble, a weekender’s saccharine.
You, turning the stove on high, hoping to make a sweet caramel--
The right words weren’t said, Junkie.
Will you be still?
Does the risk make the ground underneath true?
You knew the friction at first touch
Traction enough to carry on,
carry on--
In the same place,
You dangled, adrenaline queen.
And she knew your solid ground
As she knew an island of quicksand.

You, boiling under the surface--
I saw on her face
She recognized
Not for the first time
Not misted eyes
but steam,

Rising

The Road Not Spared

The Road Not Spared
A golden sun once beamed over a clear blue sky,
Birds once chirped joyously in stoic, mighty oaks,
Salmon once swam freely through vast oceans, and
Mist and mystery once covered swaths of greenery, leaving forests cloaked.


Now, that world is no more.


Now, black banks
Roll over barren hills, and
Bring despair to a rotting land.


Proud redwood forests,
Strong enough to thrive for millennia,
Decimated in seconds, helpless in the face of human greed
The sacred silence of their realm shredded
Their screams of anguish drowned out by the
Cacophony of loud music, malicious machinery,
Like sharp metal knives ripping open a soft sheep’s coat.
Wise old giants murdered by the young and foolish.


Serene, clear lakes,
Disturbed only by the tongue
Of a graceful gazelle,
Causing small, beautiful ripples,
Now destroyed
By the dumping of filthy sludge
Coating fish in a new
Black skin, causing suffocation
Slowly bright light
Leaves now dull eyes.


While a few voices half heartedly mumble for change,
The masses enthusiastically continue
To brutally attack our one, universal mother,
Despite knowing that they owe her everything
Leaving her bruised and broken on the ground,
Blood gushing from her deep, jagged wounds,
Only to then be raped by her own children,
Yet still providing us with life and sustenance,
Her love for her monsters perennial.


Your nation finds pride in national birds, plants, flowers,
And yet you
Part of the supposed “most civilized, intelligent species”
Could, in reality, simply not care
About the outcome of this brutality
And its effect on our future.


The golden sun hidden by black smoke,
The birds choking on their own song, lungs filled with poison
The salmon lying belly-up in the water,
The mist and mystery of the forests replaced with murder and misery.


Deforestation, destruction, devastation,
The Earth screams with pain,
Yet we turn a blind eye,
Forgetting to cry,
As our Earth screams again.

Blue

Pt. 1
Pen in hand, she lingers
Over an absence of
Loops and swirls
Lines and dots


She is overwhelmed by the intensity
Of nothing—absolute nothing
The whiteness, it’s blinding
How does one write?


She’s a schooner, sailing far from reality
Thoughts like clouds storm the clear skies
And the ink spills from the pen
Teardrops of blue fill the void


The water rises and
An orchestra of thunder and lightning
Sound to the rhythm of her beating heart
A tempest, a typhoon—a light bulb? False alarm


And so the light peaks from the clouds
And the skies are empty once again
And the pen leaks
And the ink engulfs the words unsaid


Pt. 2
But instead of on paper, pen on skin
The blue ink overflows
and floods the cracks of her skin
No, they’re not perfect


The flowers she draws aren’t perfect
Six petal flowers and clovers cover
Every inch of her canvas blue
Forget-me-not, wish me luck


Her palette of ink is an ocean mist
Of crashing waves and wasted colors
Her hand is constellation of lopsided circles
Smudges of shooting stars


Her palette of ink paints the memories
Of happier days when
Words were said
And not written


She’s told to dot her i’s and cross her t’s,
But her inkstained hands
Tell more of a story
Than her writing will ever do

Islands

Islands

There’s an island in the Pacific
called Nauru,
over 2000 miles
from the nearest coast.

A picturesque paradise
of palm trees,
coconuts,
equatorial sunlight,
and, regrettably,
phosphate.

Sold to a strip mine in 1906
Savings squandered
on a hotel, an airline,
thousands of cars
just an island no larger than 8 square miles.
Screwed out of their fortune by a few greedy bastards on the mainland.

Nothing to show for the fact that
80 percent of paradise
now uninhabitable,
nothing more than gray limestone
and dust.

There’s an island in the Pacific
called Pinta,
600 miles off Ecuador’s coast,
in the Galapagos.

The only home to
noble, majestic
Pinta island tortoise.

They’re gone now,
starved to death,
all their food eaten
because explorers thought it was a good idea
to introduce goats to the island.

Their branch
hacked off the great evolutionary tree,
never to regrow.

There’s an island in the Pacific,
fourth largest in the world,
uninhabited.

Over 250 thousand square miles
of Kraft and Hostess and Aquafina.

An island of plastic,
The Great Pacific Garbage Patch.

Our islands are dying and nothing’s being done about it.
We’re trading our tropics for trash
And we aren’t stopping.

I know when we look out from the coast,
the ocean seems vast
and untouchable
and endless,

But I just want to remind you.

There are islands in the Pacific.